Hello,
This semester I went away to college, and I began seeing a therapist for my CPTSD. I joined Campus Crusade and have made one close friend along with many acquaintances, but I find myself pretending to feel happy and upbeat around others - which is exhausting for me and probably a burden to others. I'd like to let others know how I truly feel, but I don't want to burden them with my pain. So I guess I could tell a few people (mainly my one closer friend and possibly my Bible study group) that I'm dealing with depression and anxiety and could use some prayer. I honestly feel deeply depressed as I've started realizing how much abuse and manipulation I experienced in my FOO. But I know I'm in the grieving process, so I know this pain is temporary and will lead to my recovery. If I were to share my pain in a milder way, that would relieve me of some of the pressure to appear happy, which is what was expected of me in my FOO. I don't want to put any pressure on others, but I would like to have some compassion and understanding. Does anyone have some more insight or suggestions for my situation?
This semester I went away to college, and I began seeing a therapist for my CPTSD. I joined Campus Crusade and have made one close friend along with many acquaintances, but I find myself pretending to feel happy and upbeat around others - which is exhausting for me and probably a burden to others. I'd like to let others know how I truly feel, but I don't want to burden them with my pain. So I guess I could tell a few people (mainly my one closer friend and possibly my Bible study group) that I'm dealing with depression and anxiety and could use some prayer. I honestly feel deeply depressed as I've started realizing how much abuse and manipulation I experienced in my FOO. But I know I'm in the grieving process, so I know this pain is temporary and will lead to my recovery. If I were to share my pain in a milder way, that would relieve me of some of the pressure to appear happy, which is what was expected of me in my FOO. I don't want to put any pressure on others, but I would like to have some compassion and understanding. Does anyone have some more insight or suggestions for my situation?