I am 52 yrs old
I was abused by a family member from 4-9, my parents did not believe me even when the doctors pointed out the physical and emotional injuries
At 17 I met a guy that thought really liked me, for the next 19 mo I ended up as a sex slave in human trafficking .... I escaped after months of horrific abuse by a family that stumbled across me where I was left to die
I have been married 25 yrs (my first marriage was 4 yrs) and in some ways he is worse than the others because I know him...I sold myself to him to minimize the harm emotionally and physically so now he owns me. What he says go. I say yes Sir and I serve his needs whatever they may be. I do not exist in his eyes
A couple of years ago I was raped and almost drowned.so much damage was done physically and emotionally and I am still in therapy 4 days a week.
I do not eat or sleep...sleeps is a luxury I cannot afford as I am always on watch...alert to known and perceived dangers. I do sleep when I pass out from exhaustion.
Every day he tells me I deserved the attack and it was my fought. When he forces himself on me he reminds me of that day...I was asking for it, etc. he also tells me he wish I had died that day when my attacked tried to drown me because I am so broken.
I no longer work. I do not leave my house without a companion for any reason. I am now a recluse and the panic attacks continue to roll over me. I have tried to leave but have no where to go. My therapist says I suffer from C-PTSD, disassociation disorder and Stockholm syndrome.
I know there are so many others worse than me and my heart aches for each of you.
I am lost...I am alone...I know no other way to be.
No one wants me
I was abused by a family member from 4-9, my parents did not believe me even when the doctors pointed out the physical and emotional injuries
At 17 I met a guy that thought really liked me, for the next 19 mo I ended up as a sex slave in human trafficking .... I escaped after months of horrific abuse by a family that stumbled across me where I was left to die
I have been married 25 yrs (my first marriage was 4 yrs) and in some ways he is worse than the others because I know him...I sold myself to him to minimize the harm emotionally and physically so now he owns me. What he says go. I say yes Sir and I serve his needs whatever they may be. I do not exist in his eyes
A couple of years ago I was raped and almost drowned.so much damage was done physically and emotionally and I am still in therapy 4 days a week.
I do not eat or sleep...sleeps is a luxury I cannot afford as I am always on watch...alert to known and perceived dangers. I do sleep when I pass out from exhaustion.
Every day he tells me I deserved the attack and it was my fought. When he forces himself on me he reminds me of that day...I was asking for it, etc. he also tells me he wish I had died that day when my attacked tried to drown me because I am so broken.
I no longer work. I do not leave my house without a companion for any reason. I am now a recluse and the panic attacks continue to roll over me. I have tried to leave but have no where to go. My therapist says I suffer from C-PTSD, disassociation disorder and Stockholm syndrome.
I know there are so many others worse than me and my heart aches for each of you.
I am lost...I am alone...I know no other way to be.
No one wants me