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Thank you Kizzie, I know that. I just dont have anyone to talk to. This is no ordinary break up and I have no close friends. I figured at least on here there'd be people who understand cptsd. I appreciate you taking the time to respond to my posts. Thanks again.

Yes Kizzie that's what he told me, but I got jealous. He was talking to other women, some I knew were just friends. But it hurt because he hadn't spoken to me since before Christmas. I was so confused. He was so depressed and suicidal but acting happy and flirting. He was hospitalized in Feb but signed himself out. He was keeping in touch through texting. When he finally ended it in March he said he never wanted a relationship. I know he did, I have all the texts saved to prove it.

There's more. We dated years ago when we were young. When we reconnected he was separated from his wife for 2 years, I was also seperated. His ex moved out of his state around the time I got the suicide text and the divorce is being finalized. He hadn't told me any of that until the day he ended it. I don't know what to do or think. When we were young he lived here where I do. He moved away not long after the last time he came to see me. He and I had been on and off again. He went a whole year without any contact and then showed up on my doorstep. That was in out 20. He moved Pinot state after that. I lost contact but never forgot him. I found him about 9 years ago on Facebook and we've been chartkng ever since. We talked about us a little but a few years ago he started talking a lot about us. Then he told me he was divorcing. It was after that I emailed him about us and what happended. After that it went well and he came only really strong. Checked in constantly, always told me what he was doing, where he was going etc. That was for a few months. Then suddenly he changed, I thought it was a game and tried to break it off. He got all defensive and freaked out and started saying things that didn't make sense. A few days later he told me was really going on.

Now he's gone and I don't know how to think or feel.

He's in therapy and was diagnosed with PTSD. Six months ago I got the suicide text, it was in March that he ended it. I wrote the email to tell him why I deleted him on Facebook ( I cant watch him acting fine, it makes me question what's real) I also told him how much I cared for him. I wanted to make sure he knew it was his decision to end it. I wanted him to know he's responsible for it. I'm not going to let him use me as an excuse.

Yes, I have been responding to his occasional texts, I'm the one that asked he keep in touch. I don't know what else I should do. I don't knwo how to deal with that type of depression. But when I see him post on Facebook he looks so happy and flirty and I don't know what to believe.

Hello. I joined this forum because I was involved with a CPTSD sufferer. He recently told me we were through, but he still texts every 2-3 to tell me he's still alive. This is because he sent me a suicide text about 6 months ago. When he broke it off, I sent a long email telling him everything I felt, but that I wouldn't get in touch with him anymore. I said I have no way to know if he's alive and I hoped to hear from him. So this is what he does. Sigh. I have no idea what goes on in his head, but I'm devastated.