I also identify with your experiences. I have no income, applying for SSI and denied unemployment, and left work for medical and mental health. I worked with cold nasty people and ended a horrible relationship. I'm here now because a friend I don't even care about that much won't respond to my calls or emails for no reason I can think of and all the sudden. She was supposed to cut my hair, then silence. This relationship means very little to me. Obviously triggering the stuff though. Feel like no one understands or wants to understand my struggle.