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He goes through the healing process more deeply in his book Surviving to Thriving (which I highly recommend), but you can find a list of the 13 steps on his website, along with other articles he has written:

http://pete-walker.com/13StepsManageFlashbacks.htm

I can't answer yes for sure, but I've experienced what you're talking about a lot. It's awful. It used to take me many days after the dream until I felt "normal" again and I now understand that I'd been triggered into a flashback. Like you, I wake up after these dreams with fear and shame and a heavy chest. It feels a little easier to get out of it once I go through Pete Walker's 13 steps. It may help you also if you feel like trying the exercises next time, I hope that it does x

It's taken me 3 years to finally get over my inner critic and read Pete Walker's book. I now accept that I was brought up by abusive monsters.

I've been trying my best to be consistent with my flashback management and inner child work. The more I've been experiencing time in which I'm not in a flashback, the more I've analysed my life and realised that many of my actions and thoughts were not the real me. I have moments these days where I feel present in the real world, in my real body, for the first time. The only problem is that now I don't know what my real interests, are or what my real desires are, or who I really am. I also feel like I don't even really like many of the people in my life. When I'm not in my people-pleasing state then they suck, but, then I start to feel guilty about thinking that they suck and then I find myself going back into my old habits. I've been wondering if it's ok for me to just cut these people out of my life? What if I end up completely alone? How do I know who is a good person? How do I know that it's not my judgemental inner critic making me isolate from others?

I feel like I want to explore everything, just as a kid would, in order to figure out what my interests are. But I'm not sure where to start. Even having these thoughts are beginning to make me feel ashamed because "who the * are you to have interests and like things and be your own person". I'm wondering if I'm making sense? Has anybody else experienced this after coming out of a period of flashbacks?