I am now entering the last week of my inpatient eating disorder recovery. This is my second time through the program which is a year long and I have also completed two, eighteen month outpatient programs and will return for a third round of outpatient programs. Another eighteen months.
I have weaned myself of drugs and alcohol,that also took years of struggle.
I thought I would feel amazing,I thought I would be functional,I thought I would have some peace.
But I didn't, I actually felt worse.
CPTSD has devastated my life in every way,there is nothing it hasn't touched. Nothing that it hasn't destroyed.
But I am still here,it hasn't destroyed me.
I have weaned myself of drugs and alcohol,that also took years of struggle.
I thought I would feel amazing,I thought I would be functional,I thought I would have some peace.
But I didn't, I actually felt worse.
CPTSD has devastated my life in every way,there is nothing it hasn't touched. Nothing that it hasn't destroyed.
But I am still here,it hasn't destroyed me.