Hi Bluepalm
Can I start by saying I find your writing hypnotising, almost melodic. I don't want to stop reading what you say and I want to learn more about your life and experiences.
You say;
And also to ask if anyone else has had a realisation that their tormentors in adulthood loom in their mind with the same enormously inflated size as the tormentors of their childhood.
I say most definitely. Recently it occurred when my husband showed a spell of angry projection identification. He was expelling his feelings of frustration onto me and getting more and more explosive that I didn't respond the way he wanted.
There have been a handful of times in my life I have reacted strongly in the opposite way and I found it shocks my tormentors (it is not long though before they deride, chide, humiliate, scorn for another round).
I think this is something to do with being in the child- like frame of mind when observing tormentors collectively as one like this. It may also be Regression back in time and Dissociation/floating or spacing out.
Can I start by saying I find your writing hypnotising, almost melodic. I don't want to stop reading what you say and I want to learn more about your life and experiences.
You say;
And also to ask if anyone else has had a realisation that their tormentors in adulthood loom in their mind with the same enormously inflated size as the tormentors of their childhood.
I say most definitely. Recently it occurred when my husband showed a spell of angry projection identification. He was expelling his feelings of frustration onto me and getting more and more explosive that I didn't respond the way he wanted.
There have been a handful of times in my life I have reacted strongly in the opposite way and I found it shocks my tormentors (it is not long though before they deride, chide, humiliate, scorn for another round).
I think this is something to do with being in the child- like frame of mind when observing tormentors collectively as one like this. It may also be Regression back in time and Dissociation/floating or spacing out.