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#1
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: My First Step
August 09, 2020, 04:19:20 PM
Thank you Three Roses! I will definitely look into those books. I want to feel better about myself. I want to learn how to heal myself. Your supportive words are very helpful.

Kizzie, thank you so much for providing the opportunity for someone like me to be heard and reach out. I will definitely take your advice on breaks. I don't want to get too overwhelmed too quickly.
#2
I am so very sorry to hear that you are going through this. I can empathize because I have a similar situation. I have been in a relationship for over 5 years now. We just had a baby 9 months ago. I have 2 children from a previous relationship. Through all of our ups and down in the relationship I refused to move back in with him just because we were having a baby. I was persuaded and convinced this will be a good thing. Unfortunately for my partner he has to deal with my extreme emotions at times and now because he is "worn down" after less than a year he finds it best we not be together anymore. I'm just learning how to fix myself and just found out about cptsd and it has been a game changer. I was diagnosed as being bipolar but now learning about this I have been doing better. I feel very alone. No support and even when I am moving forward to try to fix things he says he doesn't know what to do. I don't want to leave. I don't want another split. I don't want to lose him. So my heart is very broken.

My heart goes out to you and I pray things start to shine for you. Stay strong. I know it's hard.
#3
Please Introduce Yourself Here / My First Step
August 06, 2020, 05:46:32 PM
Hello everyone. I'm new here and like most posts I've read, I kind of don't know what to do from here. Plus this will be my first time in a forum. Woohoo!

I'm on a mission to fix myself. I'm angry, anxious, emotional, self destructive, and I feel like just a plain mess. Suicidal thoughts are a norm for me. It scares me how disconnected I want to get when I really know it's not the answer. I have felt so messed up for so long. I was diagnosed as being bipolar and was on different meds throughout my life. Here I am many years later and I still have my "episodes. "

My new PA just taught me about C-PTSD and told me to do my own research. After reading so much these past 2 weeks I have been enlightened by what I have learned. It gives me hope. My darkness feels deep and I feel very alone. I hope this helps me by reaching out. I hope I can make a big difference within myself with some support. The right support! Thank you for reading.