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Hello, I'm new here and I've read several postings here already. It's nice to know there's others who understand the emotional turbulence I experience all the time. I'm wondering if there is anyone else who has no memory of their life? Basically I have no memories of my childhood and now that I'm in my late 20's, I don't remember my teenage years and I have spotty memories of my early 20's. I've been seeing a therapist because my mom (and my absolute best friend) passed away which sent me in a spiral of darkness I never knew existed. My therapist diagnosed me with CPTSD and said I likely have gotten into a pattern of disassociating my memories, good and bad, due to a traumatic childhood. I believe I know what/who caused this but because I don't remember, I'll never really know. I I'm so worried I'll forget my whole life because that's the road I'm on. My therapist is amazing though and we're working through it. Has anyone else "forgotten" their trauma? Are you able to remember good memories again? I barely remember my 3 yr olds birth or what she looked like as an infant and I barely remember what my mom looked like or sounded like and I struggle with this overwhelming fear that I'll forget them completely. Thank you so much.