I'm sorry I'm so on again off again with this forum. Spending too much time can actually get stressful and triggering in its own right.
So, my question.
Lately, I'm occasionally having these experiences where my mind will be wandering and bam! I get slugged with an image that I know beyond a shadow of a doubt is mine. I realize all that once I realize the following things in a big wave: 1. that I've experienced the memory before. 2. that at one time I could access it any point and have accessed it before. 3. For some untold period of time since then, I seem to have lost the awareness that it existed. 4 I can access it at will, but it's colored by the events that surrounded remembering it again.
I know that probably sound weird. It definitely feels weird. Today I had that happen, but with such vividness that I could practically feel the fabrics that I was in contact with; I could feel so much fear and remembered little bits of what surrounded the memory.
Please tell me someone else has experienced this. It's five days until I see my therapist again, and I really want someone to tell me I'm not crazy.
So, my question.
Lately, I'm occasionally having these experiences where my mind will be wandering and bam! I get slugged with an image that I know beyond a shadow of a doubt is mine. I realize all that once I realize the following things in a big wave: 1. that I've experienced the memory before. 2. that at one time I could access it any point and have accessed it before. 3. For some untold period of time since then, I seem to have lost the awareness that it existed. 4 I can access it at will, but it's colored by the events that surrounded remembering it again.
I know that probably sound weird. It definitely feels weird. Today I had that happen, but with such vividness that I could practically feel the fabrics that I was in contact with; I could feel so much fear and remembered little bits of what surrounded the memory.
Please tell me someone else has experienced this. It's five days until I see my therapist again, and I really want someone to tell me I'm not crazy.