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Narcissistic behaviour is my biggest trigger, my coping strategies for dealing with this is initially fawning (utilising the full codependency tool kit), disassociating ( particularly in the form of fantasy- convincing myself they are not that bad really ) then freezing as a consequence of an emotional collapse. All of which makes me ideal material for attracting more narcissistic behaviour / people into my life. Combine this with my ongoing belief that despite life experience to the contrary , I am fundamentally flawed so my initial instincts are flawed too, I can really relate to what you have said. In recent years I have become more aware of my codependency and so can intercept it , with some therapy I have had, my disassociation has reduced which has had the benefit of me actually seeing people as they are , so I am less likely to think continued involvement with them is a good idea. I am now working on changing the script of my internal critic to represent ideal parents who more accurately reflect and support my successful life rather than my actual parents who only had an unhealthy prognosis for me and a desire to undermine me,  but that is difficult and work in progress. I have also been able to share my CPTSD with close friends so they now understand that when I am having an emotional collapse, I am the undefended 8 year old with no life experience rather than the 51 year old resourceful person who retired ten years ago from a highly successful career.

I developed Menieres disease and I would say it was linked to stress, I did a lot of research on possible causes and joined the Menieres disease society - ( UK) they recommend stopping drinking instant coffee ( some chemical they put in it to make the froth is not good ) stop taking Ibuprofen ( due to stress I was popping them like sweets ) cut down on salt, stop eating artificial sweeteners. I also found that if I was on the phone a lot while on the computer, my head position could trigger an episode. In fact , thinking about it , it was when the relationship I was in began to show itself as toxic as well as when my mother ( one of the authors of my toxic life story ) developed Alzheimer's. I hadn't made the link before , but thinking about it , if there isn't it was a big coincidence !!