Thanks for all the kind words, all. Your support is appreciated.
I've been withdrawing a bit from everything, plagued by some incessant EFs and nightmares that linger from my FOO's recent visit. But I've learned a lot, healing via a myriad of revelations.
Mainly though reminding myself that you can't force healing, nor can you make it go any faster. You see, my work style is akin to dedicated bursts. I get all the work done as soon as I can so I have time to rest. Every now and then, I attempt to apply this to my own mental health. I constantly contemplate in my introspection, but it doesn't work. I only confuse and tire myself from doing so.
I am trying to remind myself to be patient, by using a broken leg as a metaphor. When your leg is broken, you or course need to give it some degree of attention. Apply the splint, don't walk on it, etc. But you don't want to overdo it either. If you don't move it enough, it might weaken. If you move it too much, the bone won't heal.
In a way, this is how I should treat my CPTSD. To both softly exercise and rest. It doesn't matter how much work I put into the immediate moment, it won't make it heal any faster.
I hope everyone is doing well.
Regards,
Aphotic.
I've been withdrawing a bit from everything, plagued by some incessant EFs and nightmares that linger from my FOO's recent visit. But I've learned a lot, healing via a myriad of revelations.
Mainly though reminding myself that you can't force healing, nor can you make it go any faster. You see, my work style is akin to dedicated bursts. I get all the work done as soon as I can so I have time to rest. Every now and then, I attempt to apply this to my own mental health. I constantly contemplate in my introspection, but it doesn't work. I only confuse and tire myself from doing so.
I am trying to remind myself to be patient, by using a broken leg as a metaphor. When your leg is broken, you or course need to give it some degree of attention. Apply the splint, don't walk on it, etc. But you don't want to overdo it either. If you don't move it enough, it might weaken. If you move it too much, the bone won't heal.
In a way, this is how I should treat my CPTSD. To both softly exercise and rest. It doesn't matter how much work I put into the immediate moment, it won't make it heal any faster.
I hope everyone is doing well.
Regards,
Aphotic.