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HEllo my dear fellow survivors. It is hard for me to be here but I am sure so worth it. I was raised in a family with a terminally ill sister by I think a BP Mom and wacky Dad. I married a PD at 18 ( I had doubts but the fog of obligation happened.  He was so charming, and controlling at first. It go worse in the first 5 years but went off the charts when my son was born. That's when the Fear part came in. Threats of physical violence but always veiled with bone chilling laughter. (Won't list all the abuse just the list of NPD behavior fills it all in) ...finally he said something after learning I had gotten my own bank acct and mailbox in another town that made me escape in terror. Needless to say after 20 years I have managed to thrive without him but now realize I fit the CPTSD mold. I want to break free FINALLY!!!!! Hugs Hope