I recently started my first job, so this is the first time I've really had to get to know people since school (in my 30's now), for all of my anxiety I can actually get on with people quite well
I've been trying to get to know this one person at work and they are really nice, we chat a lot at work and outside of it for a few months now. But I can never shake the feeling of I'm going to ruin this 'Am I trying too hard? Am I not trying hard enough? Am I texting too much etc etc' You get the picture but its constant and exhausting and over every little thing
I've asked for reassurance, been open, tried to be myself and I'm doing that as much as I have ever done with anyone. They have responded kindly to me asking for reassurance but I can't do it all of the time because other people have stuff going on and it annoys people. I ask other friends about but again I can't do that all of the time, my T asked if I could try reassuring myself and I can sometimes but it's so relentless. I don't really know what to do, it's taking up almost all of my mental energy trying to make sure this one person continues to care about me and I'm not taking good care of myself elsewhere. Obviously this mirrors my childhood but I just don't want to do anything else and I am not able to force myself
Does anyone have any advice/stories from their own life that might help me?
I've been trying to get to know this one person at work and they are really nice, we chat a lot at work and outside of it for a few months now. But I can never shake the feeling of I'm going to ruin this 'Am I trying too hard? Am I not trying hard enough? Am I texting too much etc etc' You get the picture but its constant and exhausting and over every little thing
I've asked for reassurance, been open, tried to be myself and I'm doing that as much as I have ever done with anyone. They have responded kindly to me asking for reassurance but I can't do it all of the time because other people have stuff going on and it annoys people. I ask other friends about but again I can't do that all of the time, my T asked if I could try reassuring myself and I can sometimes but it's so relentless. I don't really know what to do, it's taking up almost all of my mental energy trying to make sure this one person continues to care about me and I'm not taking good care of myself elsewhere. Obviously this mirrors my childhood but I just don't want to do anything else and I am not able to force myself
Does anyone have any advice/stories from their own life that might help me?