So, a while ago I joined a support group. All in all, it's been good. I've made friends there -- good ones -- and have been building a support system through them. But I've run into a bit of a snag. One of them has BPD, and it seems like nothing I do/say around him is the right thing -- I feel like I have to walk on eggshells around him, and every time I don't... He winds up getting upset and throwing some sort of fit about how awful I am to him (I swear I'm not -- I'm one of those people who is overly quick to apologize, even if I'm not sure I've done something wrong). This is, understandably, pretty triggering for me and it makes me not really want to be around him or be involved with him any more than I have to be.
Unfortunately, he is, of course, at the center of the group who are all friendly with one another outside the group, and not interacting with him means not interacting with the other people I've come to care a great deal for (and who've come to care a great deal for me as well). He's also, of course, in a facilitator position for the support group. So the only way to get away from this cycle of behavior is to abandon my newly formed, and much needed, support system. And I'm not willing to do that. There's part of me that feels like doing that is "letting him win", and I don't want to do that. And there's part of me that recognizes that there has got to be some other option, or way to deal with things, than giving up and disappearing when I need to have friends and a support group to go to.
Confronting him isn't an option because none of what he's doing is rational, and thus can't be reasoned with. Avoiding him isn't really an option either, unless I get petty about "if he's going on X outing, then I'm not". So I'm not really sure what to do. I feel kind of stuck. None of the options I've been able to come up with seem like good ones. But I can't really go on being triggered and walking on eggshells either. I have to do something.
So, have any of you been in a similar situation? How did you handle it? Are there any resources anyone can point me to for help with this?
Unfortunately, he is, of course, at the center of the group who are all friendly with one another outside the group, and not interacting with him means not interacting with the other people I've come to care a great deal for (and who've come to care a great deal for me as well). He's also, of course, in a facilitator position for the support group. So the only way to get away from this cycle of behavior is to abandon my newly formed, and much needed, support system. And I'm not willing to do that. There's part of me that feels like doing that is "letting him win", and I don't want to do that. And there's part of me that recognizes that there has got to be some other option, or way to deal with things, than giving up and disappearing when I need to have friends and a support group to go to.
Confronting him isn't an option because none of what he's doing is rational, and thus can't be reasoned with. Avoiding him isn't really an option either, unless I get petty about "if he's going on X outing, then I'm not". So I'm not really sure what to do. I feel kind of stuck. None of the options I've been able to come up with seem like good ones. But I can't really go on being triggered and walking on eggshells either. I have to do something.
So, have any of you been in a similar situation? How did you handle it? Are there any resources anyone can point me to for help with this?