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I was so disappointed to see CPTSD isn't on the DSM V! I work at a mental health facility and we got training today. I asked the trainer, a phd, if it was in there and he had never heard of it nor had anyone else in the room! Is this a real diagnosis? What if we don't meet the criteria for standard ptsd and there is no cptsd on the dsm v, how do we get help? I'd like to go back to my therapist when I have insurance again but wonder how it's possible if my disorder doesn't even exist!

Oops, I skipped this step and already posted, not too great at navigating this site yet. I'm not even sure I've been officially diagnosed with CPTSD. Over the summer I had a breakdown and one late night I did an online search just typing what I was feeling, and info on CPTSD came up. It fits me in some ways but not others. I didn't get abused as a child. I was bullied and rejected, the hated kid. I never felt like I could escape, so maybe that's why I have it, but other people suffered the same thing and don't seem to have it. For years I thought I was borderline and some of the info I read says that's fairly common for cptsd to be misdiagnosed as borderline.
  Whatever I have, it shows up in how I deal with people. I hate people but I need them. I'm always thinking people could be a potential enemy. But I wish I had friends. I have a husband who I'm mean to more than sometimes, even though I wish so much I weren't. Sometimes I'm loving and caring, but other times I go off about nothing. He should have left me but says he won't. I want to work on it for him as well as for me. I have one friend who lives in a different country; she has ptsd, don't know if it's the complex kind. I feel like I'm either mean to people or getting walked on; there's nothing in between. I really hope I can change. I also hope to support other members with cptsd.

Is anyone else with CPTSD angry, like all the time? Or out of the blue? I just found out I have this over the summer, when things got really bad and my reactions to situations were over the top. I began typing in online what I was feeling and CPTSD came up. I went to a therapist I had seen before and she seems to agree, even though I didn't have any major tragedies in my life but was bullied throughout childhood and never felt like I could escape. Now I get pissed at everybody for everything and I don't know how to stop it. I don't know what else I can process about my childhood; I think I've talked about it until I'm blue in the face. Am I brain damaged? Am I doomed to be this way forever? I can't get therapy for awhile because I don't have insurance until January, but I'm not sure what good it would do anyway. I'm one of those people who has believed for years that I'm borderline and this is my personality. I'm still not convinced that's not true.