Well after this weekend and my bf being drunk and abusive again, i lay awake all Saturday night and realised he has been controlling and manipulating me all along. 18 months in fact.
So while i got onto this path of 'fixing' me in order to have a fulfilling relationship at last, it seems that while iv been identifying the other pds in my life past and present, he got through the net.
Im heartbroken. I chose to ignore the warning signs so its my own fault i know.
He love bombed me so much that i thought id found my soulmate. Classic story apparently duh!
Then he picks and chooses when to give me affection etc as long as im being a good girl sigh
If iv learned anything its that i will now trust my gut more. I feel like an idiot.
Iv packed his clothes and hes out when he finishes work tonight.
I would have given him more time to find a place but he raised his hand and threatened me yesterday so now he doesnt deserve my sympathy.
Gonna have a damn good cry when the kids are in bed. Glad iv got therapy tomorrow.
I can link the manipulation starting with npdd through to most of my bfs. I no longer trust my judgement regarding partners so will stay on my own until i have worked on it.
So while i got onto this path of 'fixing' me in order to have a fulfilling relationship at last, it seems that while iv been identifying the other pds in my life past and present, he got through the net.
Im heartbroken. I chose to ignore the warning signs so its my own fault i know.
He love bombed me so much that i thought id found my soulmate. Classic story apparently duh!
Then he picks and chooses when to give me affection etc as long as im being a good girl sigh
If iv learned anything its that i will now trust my gut more. I feel like an idiot.
Iv packed his clothes and hes out when he finishes work tonight.
I would have given him more time to find a place but he raised his hand and threatened me yesterday so now he doesnt deserve my sympathy.
Gonna have a damn good cry when the kids are in bed. Glad iv got therapy tomorrow.
I can link the manipulation starting with npdd through to most of my bfs. I no longer trust my judgement regarding partners so will stay on my own until i have worked on it.