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I am now going to therapy only once a month. I had a breakthrough -- I realized that this is what I'm like and I've accepted it, and stopped giving myself a hard time about it -- thinking I should be better. It's such a relief to do this -- it's like a weight has been lifted. So I will still have bad days, have bouts of anxiety, and that's okay. I can get through them. Before I fussed and whined about them, and made myself feel worse.

I'm have mixed feelings about this. On one hand, it's good news. The last few sessions have been just talking about things that I cope with that happen over and over again.

But I guess I'm also dealing with accepting that I have an incurable mental illness, I have learned how to cope with it, but it will never go away completely.

I was doing moderately well, as long as I followed my usual routine. However, my computer was dying and I have a Chromebook. I used to be a real computer geek, and it took over my life for a couple of weeks. Actually had some energy.

Then I crashed -- could only cope with what was absolutely necessary. I have just been relaxing for a few days and I feel better. I usually have a small crash if I do too much in one day, but it doesn't last that long.

I've had depression off and on since high school. The last one, when I was diagnosed with PTSD, has lasted a long time. I used to be a resilient person, and after down periods, I used to eventually get my life back. Haven't been able to do this, and it's been three years.
Anyone else notice this?