Hi everyone
It's been so long since I posted last.. I miss you all and think about you!
So this week my family is out of town, but, major victory for me, I stayed home. I worked everything out even though they made it so hard. I found a place to stay and a car to borrow.
Last night though as I was pulling out of work I totalled the car I was borrowing I'm fine, but the car is unrepairable. As you can imagine, my inner critic is having the time if her life.
Telling me how of course I managed to destroy someone else's car, maybe your parents were right about not letting you drive, you're so stupid, you get one week of total freedom and you ruin it and have to pay all kinds if things from the money you were saving to move out.
I'm trying to keep the opinion that my coworkers and friends have that the car doesn't matter, I'm lucky I'm ok. But something tells me when my parents find out they're going to care more about their insurance premium going up. Not that's that's unexpected or anything. -_-
I'm trying to tell myself that it's not completely my fault, that there were trees and it was somewhat of a blind turn and that my parents didn't prepare me well enough. But deep down the voice is saying no you're just stupid.
I need to show them same compassion for myself as I would for any one else..
This post is all over the place.
I have to go into court next week to find out how much I'll have to pay for my citation. That's terrifying to me.
I'm out of words now. Thanks for reading
It's been so long since I posted last.. I miss you all and think about you!
So this week my family is out of town, but, major victory for me, I stayed home. I worked everything out even though they made it so hard. I found a place to stay and a car to borrow.
Last night though as I was pulling out of work I totalled the car I was borrowing I'm fine, but the car is unrepairable. As you can imagine, my inner critic is having the time if her life.
Telling me how of course I managed to destroy someone else's car, maybe your parents were right about not letting you drive, you're so stupid, you get one week of total freedom and you ruin it and have to pay all kinds if things from the money you were saving to move out.
I'm trying to keep the opinion that my coworkers and friends have that the car doesn't matter, I'm lucky I'm ok. But something tells me when my parents find out they're going to care more about their insurance premium going up. Not that's that's unexpected or anything. -_-
I'm trying to tell myself that it's not completely my fault, that there were trees and it was somewhat of a blind turn and that my parents didn't prepare me well enough. But deep down the voice is saying no you're just stupid.
I need to show them same compassion for myself as I would for any one else..
This post is all over the place.
I have to go into court next week to find out how much I'll have to pay for my citation. That's terrifying to me.
I'm out of words now. Thanks for reading