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I had an appointment  with my T today, for me not my daughter. As usual half the session was discussing her, our cptsd is so tangled. I normally go in with questions from my reading on cptsd, today was no different. It was can I get started now? Ive read that the stages for healing from cptsd are safety, then stabilisation, next working the trauma via cbt or similar. I have to say my experience with cbt was not good, so I had been dreading that starting. How do you focus on one traumatic event when there are hundreds, all linked in? It sent me on a tail spin with a previous therapist. My current one just looked at me and said you have started! I wads suprised. She doesnt think that for very complex trauma cbt is appropriate, thank goodness! Apparently all my quiet reflection, and slowly working out why my panic attacks trigger, or my need to stand with a wall behind me for protection etc etc is healing! wow. I thought maybe all my researching, reading on cptsd, tauma etc may have been another way to punish and wallow in self pity. (helpful accusations from my previous T). Now I feel like I can see a path forward, for both my daughter and I. Sort through the tangle of feelings so I can understand my mind and body. The link or association to smells, places music etc will always be there as its now wired but with understanding it can be managed or controlled. what a relief. Im starting to get better at linking my daughters and my emotional etc responces back to what happened in the past. The more I unravel, the easier it seems to be. Not saying I have it solved, I have a long, long way to go. Gee I still feel no anger to the perpetrator. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

hello, ive just discovered your site. both my daughter, age 11 and I have c ptsd. Today her psych described to me that what we lived through was called entrapment from my then husband. It was quite a shock but in some ways made me feel better. I so easily shut all of it away so I can still raise my daughter, work to provide for her, support her through her ptsd and put on a brave face that often I dont remember much of the abuse, but it always bubbles back. It lasted for 8 years. We are safe now, although there are still custody access worries for me as I dont have enough evidence to prevent access if it goes to court. I am still very isolated as I am a single mum with a very small support group. I often feel so alone and misunderstood its nice to find a site where people seem to get it.