I have been an anxious, cranky mess since moving back home. It's only temporary but still. My parents are just so negative. Nothing is good enough for my F. I noticed I feel very insecure now and I didn't when I was at school. Perhaps it's because they're always pointing out everything we don't have, without doing anything to fix it. I have developed an irrational fear that my bf is going to leave me because I've been anxious and cranky lately. I know it's irrational but I just can't shake it. He has said nothing to make me feel this way, this is all me. He keeps reassuring me that this will pass and I've just cracked after being under so much stress for so long without any sort of break or vacation. He has even agreed to a beach getaway with me, so like I said this is super irrational. I've been having trouble sleeping too with constant nightmares...I feel like a helpless teenager again and it's so difficult seeing my friends on social media going on elaborate vacations and I'm stuck at home with my negative FOO. I just hate being in a place where displaying distress is taken as a personal attack, I'm not allowed to have a bad day and am expected to be happy 24/7 and if I'm not then I'm ungrateful. I guess it's just harder going back now that I've had my freedom for so long...if you made it this far, thank you for listening to me vent
