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Therapy / New Diagnosis
July 05, 2017, 04:08:54 AM
I've been seeing a therapist for a year due to divorce sadness, etc.  I knew my relationship was abusive, and I just fell apart inside when it ended.   My ex-partner had Bi-Polar and severe PTSD and so all along I helped her and co-existed, walking on egg shells, thinking her behavior to me was normal.  It took me a few months into therapy to realize she was abusive to me, and that I also had "issues" (figure that).   All along we had talked about adjustment disorder - but now the therapist told me I have C-PTSD.   I came home and read everything I can get my hands on, and the scary thing is, all the symptoms "fit".  I'm so confused.   I am able to manage my business, be a single mom, and keep things going well - I don't feel "crazy" and most people wouldn't think I'm odd or strange.

  I don't WANT to have a diagnosis of C-PTSD.   I think it makes me feel broken.  Or something.    The only thing I know I have been diagnosed with in the past is Generalized Anxiety Disorder (which I figured was no big deal), and Situational Depression (after my child unexpectedly passed away....) and I could write that one off as "understandable too".   But C-PSTD seems like a BIG DEAL and it makes me a little scared.   

Any words of wisdom, or any words at all of response are appreciated.  Thank you for your time in reading my post.