Something that I'm really struggling with is the fact that I don't seem bothered at all by memories of my childhood abuse and neglect. My therapist keeps trying to assist me in processing 'traumatic' memories, but if the memories don't cause any bad feelings, is this processing necessary? I can remember being beaten and severely emotionally neglected, but these memories don't upset me in the slightest. I am more concerned with my vomit phobia, social anxiety and being bullied in more recent years than things that happened in my childhood.
Am I supposed to have bad feelings about my abuse? If so, how do I get in touch with these feelings? I've tried jounalling, etc, but I'm just blank really.
I have explained this to my therapist but she is convinced I am carrying trauma from childhood and that this is driving my anxiety and that we need to keep working on it.
I feel there is a big piece of the puzzle missing that I just can't find. Does this sound like a form of dissociation?
Thanks in advance for any opinions.
Am I supposed to have bad feelings about my abuse? If so, how do I get in touch with these feelings? I've tried jounalling, etc, but I'm just blank really.
I have explained this to my therapist but she is convinced I am carrying trauma from childhood and that this is driving my anxiety and that we need to keep working on it.
I feel there is a big piece of the puzzle missing that I just can't find. Does this sound like a form of dissociation?
Thanks in advance for any opinions.