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Please Introduce Yourself Here / Running scared
January 08, 2015, 05:34:37 PM
Please allow me to introduce to this forum an imaginary person that has severe C-PTSD. His trigger is any angry voice, or even the "thought", that someone might become angry. In short he is afraid of everyone, nor does he trust anyone, period. His life around people is a constant struggle with fear, hyper-vigilance, high anxiety levels, high blood pressure (BP), and full blown fight or flight attacks. He takes several pills each day to keep his BP and emotions in check, even with his limited interaction with people.

He developed his PTSD very early in life, for he was born deeply introverted, and highly sensitive (HSP), into a very large, very poor, "poisonous pedagogy" (Alice Miller) FOO that lived in a small farm house. Those very traits became his "dementors" (JK Rowling), for there was no place for an introvert to find any peace or downtime. And the HSP trait (sensory gating) did not allow for him to filter out any of the constant shouting, hitting, and spanking. The more he reacted to the chaos, the worse the punishment became. No attachment to either parent, or anyone else was ever established. He grew up in constant fear of his parents. (Dementors are ghostly creatures that suck the life forces out of people)

This imaginary person is now 70+ years old and only discovered recently (2014) the concepts of introversion, HSP, and C-PTSD. But it is clearly the PTSD that he struggles with daily. He is still self sufficent in that he cooks, cleans, and sews for himself. He is the plumber, the electrician, auto mechanic, handyman, landscaper, and farmer. Retired, he has little need at present to interface with the public. He is married, 35+ years, to a non-HSP extrovert that may have signs of being NPD.  So, no help there.

So, what are your thoughts? At this age does it make any sense to take on the challenge of doing therapy? And since he is unable/unwilling to "trust" anyone, isn't finding a confidant', or "enlightened witness" (Alice Miller) going to be difficult?

And no, I'm not kidding myself, or anyone else, he is not imaginary, he is a very real person. For his name, and my name, is "Nibbe". All I really ask for is to live quietly, in isolation. But for the extroverted masses, this is not understandable, nor acceptable.

"When it is Quiet, And I am Alone, I am at PEACE.........