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Please Introduce Yourself Here / I'm finally posting!
January 11, 2015, 02:04:50 AM
Hi all. I have been posting a lot on OOTF for about 2 years. I found this forum a few months ago and have been reading ever since. I hope the acronyms are used on this forum as well.

There is so much to say that I don't know what to say. I'm 53, divorced for 10 years, 2 teenage sons, diagnosed with CPTSD for a couple of years. I grew up in a family that I always knew was "not quite right". A few years ago I was able to put all of the pieces together - NM, enNF, NGCbro who is a bully/beast, and another mini-NGCbro. I was the SG and was physically, verbally, and emotionally abused.

Before I came OOTF, I began to do things when around FOO, that unknowingly were so characteristic of the abused SG with CPTSD. I went NC on the day of my enNF's funeral in June 2013 after being made aware of the most evil thing NM did to me. It was a lightbulb moment, and like a switch went off, I went NC. I knew at that moment I would never see or speak to NM again. I was abused, smeared, gaslighted, you name it, until I was over 50! Now I am free.

No surprise that NO ONE has contacted me since that day. No family, friends, no one. NM did a great job of continuing with her smearing of me. But, I no longer care. I don't care what has, or is, being said about me. What a feeling of freedom!

So, I have been working on my recovery since then. I have read tons of books on NPD. I am currently reading Walker's book. I am doing so much better since NC. Now I'd like to participate in the community on this board.

Parts of everyone's stories are so familiar to me. We have travelled similar, yet distinct, journeys. I'm so glad I found this forum.

Thank you!