New, obviously. Seriously struggling, hard to get compassion so decided to look for online support.
Started age 3ish, stepfather was an abusive sociopath who enjoyed terrorizing and beating me. Throughout my life, one person after another for, oh, 37 years. Misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder, ive been rediagnosed as having aspergers. 15 years of medication that gave me symptoms of bipolar so they overmedicated me trying to make me well.
I Took myself off all the meds over several years, but the therapist i was seeing at the time wasnt thrilled. Ive been unmedicated for two years now, but its hitting me, the grief.
Im dying inside. There are no supports that i know of for people like me. I feel like i was wrongly imprisoned, set free without any coping skills. The degredation i suffered while medicated, the humiliation, I COULD HAVE HAD KIDS. Ive dealt with so much and im tired. Im sick and tired of the pain.
I cant find adequate professional help with compassion. This pain is drowning me.
Started age 3ish, stepfather was an abusive sociopath who enjoyed terrorizing and beating me. Throughout my life, one person after another for, oh, 37 years. Misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder, ive been rediagnosed as having aspergers. 15 years of medication that gave me symptoms of bipolar so they overmedicated me trying to make me well.
I Took myself off all the meds over several years, but the therapist i was seeing at the time wasnt thrilled. Ive been unmedicated for two years now, but its hitting me, the grief.
Im dying inside. There are no supports that i know of for people like me. I feel like i was wrongly imprisoned, set free without any coping skills. The degredation i suffered while medicated, the humiliation, I COULD HAVE HAD KIDS. Ive dealt with so much and im tired. Im sick and tired of the pain.
I cant find adequate professional help with compassion. This pain is drowning me.