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I have been in Dynamic style psychotherapy for about 3 years and my psychiatrist has just gone on an extended leave so it will be several months before I get to see her again. I feel a bit adrift. Just the thought of her not being 'there' is triggering in itself. I tried looking for an online 'backup' or self-help app but I have mistrust issues with online sites unless I have some reassurances. Any suggestions would be welcome. 

I have friends who are not taking this pandemic seriously and it is triggering huge amounts of anger in me. I am worried that I will lose some friends entirely over this. It is that 'LISTEN TO ME!!' scream in my head. I know that my anger at those who are putting others at risk is valid but I also feel within myself that it is triggering an HUGE emotional response that I am barely able to control. Anyone else dealing with rage because of this situation?

I used to think that I had my Inner Critic under control but the past few days I have noticed it rearing its ugly head, telling me I am selfish and self-absorbed triggered by feeling the need for solitude and reflection. Last night I was watching an old mystery movie with friends and I kept thinking "oh that nasty character that everyone hates is just like ME!" even to the point of thinking that maybe their comments about that repulsive, bossy, conceited woman  in the story were actually veiled comments directed at me. I do not actually think that is the case at all, but there is that tiny voice that tries to convince me otherwise.  Then of course there comes the 'maybe that is true' and I start trying to come up with things I have done or said that PROVE that I am not selfish...on and on..

Greetings,

I am pleased to have found this site and have begun reading the vast store of information you have assembled.  I have sought a support group on the advice of my psychiastrist as a means to help me cope between our bi-weekly sessions. I am in the early stages of dynamic based psychotherapy.  I suffer from symptoms related to childhood and subsequent trauma.

My mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia before I was bom. Up until I was 6 years old I lived with my maternal grandparents and my mother who was in and out of mental institution. When I was 7 I was told that I was going to live with my father and two older sisters who I had never met. A few days later I was picked up by this strange man, taken on an airplane and dropped into a family of complete strangers. Along with my two sisters there was another girl 2 years younger than I was and a woman that everyone was calling 'Mom'. I was told nothing. The woman (my new stepmother) was very strict and 'proper'.  Less than 3 years later we had moved and to a new country, and lost our home and all of our possessions in a housefire. The step-sister that shared the same bedroom was killed in the fire.
I was an island in all of this tragedy surrounded by virtual strangers who were all mired in their own distress.

This set the stage for an adult life of chaos and abusive relationships from which I am now on the road to recovery.

My current situation/environment is ideal, I am where I want to be, with a wonderful husband, retired on a hobby farm with animals I adore. 

Healing.