Forgot my account information as I was undecided if I wanted to live at the point of writing the last message.
Developments since last post:I was put on anti-depressants and I hated it so I stopped.
I went to counseling and they failed me epicly and validated my general distrust for humans.
I've accepted that while my views may make me jaded, it has never been clearer that people in general are selfish, and that while my distrust in people seems harsh it has never been more clear that it is valid, and that I should assume 99.9999999999% lack the capacity to understand the depth of my pain and it is unfair for me to ask people to try...
Future Goals:
Cope with the fact that I may never meet another person that has explored this much of the abyss, or anyone actually capable of helping.
Parting note:
I hope if you have issues you can find people who actually care about you, I have failed to, but I am just 1 of 1000000 souls lost in the abyss.
I've decided that I should live and will not be releasing myself from this tormenting reality, though I will greet death with a loving embrace whenever I am offered an audience.
Good bye OOTS, thank you for listening, I gave it my best shot.