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Before remembering my abuse I was very outgoing and really loved people. I am a sensitive person and very empathetic, however the last few years I have had a lot of difficulty feeling emotions. When I do feel "emotion" it seems like all of them at once all jumbled up. I have learned to fake emotions to accommodate my husband and children (I don't have anyone else in my life now). It makes it even more difficult because I spend most of my time alone. I did get a puppy and she is the greatest little thing! The first time I saw her face was the first time in over a year that I felt overwhelming love! She is a wonderful companion. I am thankful in a way because if I had remembered the trauma before I had children I don't think I would have been able to be the mother I was to them. On the other hand because I didn't remember they were exposed to the same abuse from the same abuser (my own mother). I "feel" guilt. I am not sure if I will ever feel like myself again or not. Remeber though before we all found each other here, we felt like we were the only one and we were alone with no one who understood, now we know differently!

Great post! We all need to find things we like and appreciate about ourselves everyday!
1. I am a caring and extremely empathetic person.
2. I love my family and take very good care of them.
3. I have been a great mother.
4. I am honest.
5. I am loyal.
6. I am faithful.
7. I love animals. Mine are so wonderful!
My deepest desire is that everyone hurt by abuse would be made whole again

Wow, thank you puppies4thesad! I will check that out! I think that pretty much sums it up! I kind of feel like that's what is happening. It's like I just "check out". It really is terrifying to me. It seems to happen most when I've been stressed or sometimes triggered by something. Thanks again!

Hello eveyone! I havent been here long but I just had to say how nice it is to see the way you interact and care for one another's feelings. Thank you so much for what you are doing. I am one who can not see a therapist at this time and spend so much time alone, this has already helped me to feel connected and not so alone. For that I am greatful!

Yes Kizzie, animals are so amazing! I love my dogs so much. They are my best friends. I am with by them all the time, I don't leave the house much but when I do, I get separation anxiety lol! They are a great comfort to me. I will check into training as well. Thank you.

Thank you so much! I will look further into PNES. I am a proud mommy of two beautiful dogs. They are a great comfort to me and one will be very clingy before I have a seizure. If I pay attention to her I can sometimes tell when its coming. I have been thinking of volunteering with animals in some way. I feel much more comfortable with animals than with most people. Thank you again for the info! It helps to understand. I know I have to really manage stress and keep it to a bare minimum which is not always easy to do.

Thank you, Three roses. I am hoping some that may experience this can give me some help managing this. Sometimes it comes out of nowhere and yes can be very scary. Last time I ended up in the Er with a broken nose, whiplash and a cut on the forehead. Have seriously thought about wearing some kind of helmet or protective gear. Im scared I will seriously hurt myself or even die from it if it doesnt get better. Have done the week long tests in the hospital, never find anything. Always "normal". So discouraged :-(

Hi, I am new and just wondering if anyone else experiences passing out or has seizures from ptsd? Mine started in early teens as a dejavu type experience that left me feeling upset and drained. I didnt remember my childhood abuse until a few years ago. Since remembering everything I now have full blown  seizures, passing out, uncontious on the floor and have even gotten hurt pretty badly a few times. I now dont drive, work or see anyone but my husband and kids. I get pretty depressed and very lonely but do not trust myself to get out alone. I dont know anyone where I live. Can anyone relate?