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Welcome, I am new here too

I am sorry you have struggled so much with eating disorder. It's sounds really painful.

I have a therapist/psychiatrist that understand trauma very well, but I weight 183lbs while I should weight 172lbs (according to my GP), I am very ashamed of that. I feel disgustingly obese, like no one else in the World  (I don't find people with obesity disgusting, just myself). I don't want to be thin (actually, I would like to be more musculate), just fat free.

I relate a lot to:
"Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance."
I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison-

Two months ago I started to suffer from a depressive episode that still last....

I have found that restricting food intake makes me feel in control of everything.
I don't count calories or anything, I just eat as little as I can.

Does anyone feel the same?

I am sorry you have suffered that much.

When we are young, and there is nobody whom we can trust enough or get help from, if a traumatic event occurs that it is too much to bear our mind may black out in order to protect ourselves and keep going with life.

Welcome 

I am new here too.

What I mean by "delayed affective development" are things like not knowing how to give an hug or how to play with others.

I was misdiagnosed as having autism as a child due to it, I think I actually had RAD.

Hi all. I'm trying to assess how much trouble I will have with the medical establishment over this semi self-diagnosis. It isn't in The DSM-V (dropped it at the last minute amidst controversy). Here is the World Health Organization's definition

https://icd.who.int/browse11/l-m/en#/http://id.who.int/icd/entity/585833559

After successfully keeping my life mostly positive with a diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, the DSM-V came out, I changed GPs and things went downhill. All of a sudden I was diagnosed Bipolar II by one Pdoc and BPD by another. There are symptoms in both (violence, narcissism, risky behaviour, etc.) that I have never manifested. C-PTSD fits me perfectly.

compound this by my basically being locked out of the mostly useless 'mental health care system' here in NS, I have basically been untreated for years now.

Has anybody here had any experience with this diagnosis? Ant thoughts/advice on getting this diagnosis recognized? I'm at a point where I can't even leave the apartment by myself. Life is just pure misery and I can't get any help.

CPTSD on the ICD-11 will replace this diagnosis from ICD-10 (F62.0):
"Enduring personality change after catastrophic experience"
Enduring personality change, present for at least two years, following exposure to catastrophic stress. The stress must be so extreme that it is not necessary to consider personal vulnerability in order to explain its profound effect on the personality. The disorder is characterized by a hostile or distrustful attitude toward the world, social withdrawal, feelings of emptiness or hopelessness, a chronic feeling of "being on edge" as if constantly threatened, and estrangement. Post-traumatic stress disorder (F43.1) may precede this type of personality change.
https://icd.who.int/browse10/2016/en#/F62.0

I am diagnosed with it. It description is similar to CPTSD, the only difference it is that it assumes that you have a previous healthy personality before the traumatic experience while some of us were abused since before being born.

I have read many descriptions of it, but I don't understand it.

Thank you all,

It's hard, I didn't know it could be so hard to participate...

There are no words, how can I introduce myself? I shouldn't be here, I shouldn't be anywhere.


"Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance." I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison-

I like reading, so?

So...

I would like to lock up myself in a book, write my story from the beginning with my own will, will-ink, a good blue one like the infinite ocean. It's peaceful to just float and forget about everything, it wash everything away...


I am 22 as far as I remember.

Student, worker... I am by my own.



Chronic PTSD diagnosis from child abuse


Hi everyone