Hello everyone, I'm new here. I am also about 2 years in to learning about my symptoms and what cptsd is about. I have derealization dissociation a lot when I get stressed.
I have a question about anxiety about death. I am not sure what kind of symptom this is...hyper vigilance? I sought out this forum because I go through periods where I am certain I am about to die shortly. Like I only have a few weeks left. Or, if I depersonalize, I think the truth is that I died a long time ago, and I am a ghost just trying to figure out that I died and will shortly move on.
I had a dream a couple months ago that my recently deceased grandma came to me and told me she was taking me "home" after a car accident I was going to have. She said the "big day" was going to be 6/28, this Friday.

I've had bad dreams all week about it, dreams about taking a "big sleep for 100 years", funeral dreams, I see caskets.... something feels like it's going haywire.
I'm trying not to freak out, but it is unfortunately actually getting to me. I feel like it's real, but I'm trying to understand it's anxiety, somehow related to cptsd.
I guess I'm trying to educate myself about this kind of anxiety and nightmares to help myself ground. Any ideas how this relates to cptsd???