i decided to start another journal, one that carries more mundane stuff. because i'm back in my original hometown now (more or less - a suburb), after nearly a quarter century, everything is familiar yet all new. it really does seem like starting over.
i want to record this area of my journey on its own. there's so much here that doesn't have to do w/ c-ptsd, yet this is also where 3 of my biggest abusers were (2 of them, my D1 and my ex are still here). don't even know if my D1 knows i'm here. last i heard, my ex wasn't telling her. and, thank goodness, my first therapist has moved away. she did a number on me that i carry with till this day.
it's sad all over to me to write that. we'll see if this works. i also wanted to begin a journal here because there are folks here who's feedback and support i miss, and i suspect it's because i've only been involved in the 'members journals' section for quite a while. just want to see what this feels like. i am sad, tho.
i want to record this area of my journey on its own. there's so much here that doesn't have to do w/ c-ptsd, yet this is also where 3 of my biggest abusers were (2 of them, my D1 and my ex are still here). don't even know if my D1 knows i'm here. last i heard, my ex wasn't telling her. and, thank goodness, my first therapist has moved away. she did a number on me that i carry with till this day.
it's sad all over to me to write that. we'll see if this works. i also wanted to begin a journal here because there are folks here who's feedback and support i miss, and i suspect it's because i've only been involved in the 'members journals' section for quite a while. just want to see what this feels like. i am sad, tho.