being able to break thru the feelings of helplessness at what's going on in the world felt good today. i can now accept that people are going to do what they are going to do, and it's something important for me to realize that i can't fix it. always had that pressure on to fix things for people or situations. don't have to do that now.
it's quite freeing, actually. didn't think it could be, but if feels as if some of the shackles have been shrugged off. this is the best i've felt, for the longest time running, since sept. i've been able to resolve my anxiety before bed and acquire this knowledge that i can and do accept people will act in ways that i don't agree w/ or that i view as dangerous, disrespectful, or dishonorable. 3 d's, for sure - i've witnessed it and experienced it too many times. glad to get that out of the way.
so, a new journal with a new perspective. i don't feel stuck anymore, which is such a relief. what, 7 months or so of that? way too long.
will be getting into some of my childhood stuff, especially my dad stuff next week. that should prove interesting.
it's quite freeing, actually. didn't think it could be, but if feels as if some of the shackles have been shrugged off. this is the best i've felt, for the longest time running, since sept. i've been able to resolve my anxiety before bed and acquire this knowledge that i can and do accept people will act in ways that i don't agree w/ or that i view as dangerous, disrespectful, or dishonorable. 3 d's, for sure - i've witnessed it and experienced it too many times. glad to get that out of the way.
so, a new journal with a new perspective. i don't feel stuck anymore, which is such a relief. what, 7 months or so of that? way too long.
will be getting into some of my childhood stuff, especially my dad stuff next week. that should prove interesting.