thanks, chart. i know it seems like some time has passed, especially to others, but it doesn't feel like that to me. everything still feels raw. guess i need more time.
had a dissociative moment yesterday while driving, came back in the middle of a 4-way stop intersection that i was moving thru w/o stopping. boy, was i surprised! i don't recall ever doing that in my life. still, it tells me i am very far from being ok.
today, i managed to get in the shower, will change my sheets, and i feel wasted, as in a wasteland, devoid of nuance, bright, or energy. once again, this has all been too much, and i'm reeling under the impact, barely able to walk, move smoothly, i'm all bent over, everything is a chore to be done, no enjoyment. bleak.

had a dissociative moment yesterday while driving, came back in the middle of a 4-way stop intersection that i was moving thru w/o stopping. boy, was i surprised! i don't recall ever doing that in my life. still, it tells me i am very far from being ok.
today, i managed to get in the shower, will change my sheets, and i feel wasted, as in a wasteland, devoid of nuance, bright, or energy. once again, this has all been too much, and i'm reeling under the impact, barely able to walk, move smoothly, i'm all bent over, everything is a chore to be done, no enjoyment. bleak.