armee, your kind words, encouragement, understanding, i just gobble it up. thank you.
under the retraumatizing/EF's posting, i detailed what's going on now. this is hurting my D so badly, which in turn hurts me, besides bringing up all the ways her F/my ex did the exact same thing to me, 2 major things which essentially broke our marriage. to see him doing the same to her - all of it to appease D1, who is making him choose between her and her sister, holding him hostage cuz she's very sick and possibly going to die from this illness and if he doesn't do what she wants she told him she didn't want him w/ her while she dies.
this has gotten to the point where my D finally told him what he's doing is hurting her, hurting me, and if he didn't stand up to D1, then she couldn't be a part of this anymore. she broke up w/ him yesterday, told him he had to make a decision, that she wasn't going to be part of this, and to let her know when he decides. i give her a lot of credit for standing up to him (she's already gone NC w/ her sister about 7 yrs. ago).
and her sister also sent emails to her (D) with more of the same garbage she's sent in the past. this is taking its toll on my D, which is also taking a toll on me. i've been thru this scenario before w/ him - he chose D1 over me - so i'm reliving the nightmare of this dynamic thru my D. our place is so full of stress and tension right now, it's nearly suffocating. i know my body is reacting badly to it.
i can't believe this is happening. on the other hand, i'm not surprised. been here, done that. am now here again. too much, just way too much.
under the retraumatizing/EF's posting, i detailed what's going on now. this is hurting my D so badly, which in turn hurts me, besides bringing up all the ways her F/my ex did the exact same thing to me, 2 major things which essentially broke our marriage. to see him doing the same to her - all of it to appease D1, who is making him choose between her and her sister, holding him hostage cuz she's very sick and possibly going to die from this illness and if he doesn't do what she wants she told him she didn't want him w/ her while she dies.
this has gotten to the point where my D finally told him what he's doing is hurting her, hurting me, and if he didn't stand up to D1, then she couldn't be a part of this anymore. she broke up w/ him yesterday, told him he had to make a decision, that she wasn't going to be part of this, and to let her know when he decides. i give her a lot of credit for standing up to him (she's already gone NC w/ her sister about 7 yrs. ago).
and her sister also sent emails to her (D) with more of the same garbage she's sent in the past. this is taking its toll on my D, which is also taking a toll on me. i've been thru this scenario before w/ him - he chose D1 over me - so i'm reliving the nightmare of this dynamic thru my D. our place is so full of stress and tension right now, it's nearly suffocating. i know my body is reacting badly to it.
i can't believe this is happening. on the other hand, i'm not surprised. been here, done that. am now here again. too much, just way too much.