ya know, tea, i'm one who never re-reads my journals, either here or at home. i'm glad it's something that helps you see yourself more clearly. for me, it just would bring back neg. memories, and would set me back, bring me distress. just one more example of how this stuff works differently for everyone.
you are moving forward - i've seen it. maybe you haven't accomplished everything you wanted to do yet, but there's time. when it's your time, it'll happen. and i love your signature. it's so very caring and nurturing. beautiful.
keep up the good work, tea. big hug to you.