acknowledging and being with your pain is a pos. step, to my mind. it will pass.
i also agree with you completely that your anger belongs with them, not with you. you did nothing wrong. we can't cope well with what happened to us because we didn't know how. that's not our fault - we were never taught. thank heavens we are finally learning.
sorry about your being made fun of by your brother. it sounds like you had a creative mind even then. that should have been encouraged rather then put down. sounds like lots of realizations are coming up for you. best to you with all this. big hug.
i also agree with you completely that your anger belongs with them, not with you. you did nothing wrong. we can't cope well with what happened to us because we didn't know how. that's not our fault - we were never taught. thank heavens we are finally learning.
sorry about your being made fun of by your brother. it sounds like you had a creative mind even then. that should have been encouraged rather then put down. sounds like lots of realizations are coming up for you. best to you with all this. big hug.