Amamiame, I totally understand where you are coming from, and I very much empathize.
It seems like regulating the bonding system has to do with regulating the fight or flight system. From what I read, we need to experience a veeeeery safe relationship (maybe with a therapist or somewhat else) in order to dampen the f & f reaction.
I have read that attachment problems can be alleviated and made better as adults. It is not easy.
Like I said before, I am kind of in a detachment phase, as I used to be much more clingy. I have the sensation that I am being smothered in many, but not all respects. Like my personal space violation trigger gets tripped a lot. It is like I have gone from completely disorganized attachment to avoidant, which is a step "up" in the lesser of two evils.
Here is a paper about establishing secure attachments.
http://undividedjournal.com/2012/11/29/the-ultimate-secure-base-healing-insecure-attachment-in-the-nondual-field/
It seems like regulating the bonding system has to do with regulating the fight or flight system. From what I read, we need to experience a veeeeery safe relationship (maybe with a therapist or somewhat else) in order to dampen the f & f reaction.
I have read that attachment problems can be alleviated and made better as adults. It is not easy.
Like I said before, I am kind of in a detachment phase, as I used to be much more clingy. I have the sensation that I am being smothered in many, but not all respects. Like my personal space violation trigger gets tripped a lot. It is like I have gone from completely disorganized attachment to avoidant, which is a step "up" in the lesser of two evils.
Here is a paper about establishing secure attachments.
http://undividedjournal.com/2012/11/29/the-ultimate-secure-base-healing-insecure-attachment-in-the-nondual-field/