Anxious and generally....bad.
I feel like a bad person. Worthless. Scapegoat comes to mind, even if everything's all my fault.
Outcast. Like the dirt on someones shoe. i want to yet it looks like I'm creating my own isolation which has just happened, its not what i want.
I cant please everyone, and know one knows whats happening in my FOO that has meant i cant go back there, and has lead to me making a snap decision about who to spend xmas with, meaning that it took me ages to let this person know...and thats the option i would have rather gone for, rather than the other, in which the choice was also, made for me...
I cant say no, i can't be honest...i feel overly responsible for everyone...
and I'm sure I'm repeating patterns with this guy who I'm spending it with, who is kind of like my father.. My dad may not be physically with me, but he appears in others.
I feel like a bad person. Worthless. Scapegoat comes to mind, even if everything's all my fault.
Outcast. Like the dirt on someones shoe. i want to yet it looks like I'm creating my own isolation which has just happened, its not what i want.
I cant please everyone, and know one knows whats happening in my FOO that has meant i cant go back there, and has lead to me making a snap decision about who to spend xmas with, meaning that it took me ages to let this person know...and thats the option i would have rather gone for, rather than the other, in which the choice was also, made for me...
I cant say no, i can't be honest...i feel overly responsible for everyone...
and I'm sure I'm repeating patterns with this guy who I'm spending it with, who is kind of like my father.. My dad may not be physically with me, but he appears in others.