Hi hamster!
I can totally relate to your post. I totally get the anger. My anger actually lasted a few years along with denial.
I'm speaking for myself here, but once the anger subsided it allowed me to actually accept my 'illness' (injury) and it's only been in this acceptance that I've really moved forward with my recovery. Pete Walker says in his book that recovery is a never ending process. When I first read that it absolutely terrified me. Now it empowers me. While the real change is hard hard uncomfortable work, I've actually found some parts of therapy and getting to know myself fun and enjoyable.
Don't let anyone tell you to stop being angry because you have every right to be. Please just know that even though it's a long journey the anger will subside (the all consuming anger anyway, not the healthy understandable anger) which will leave room in your heart for healing.
I'm 28 too by the way. Welcome!
I can totally relate to your post. I totally get the anger. My anger actually lasted a few years along with denial.
I'm speaking for myself here, but once the anger subsided it allowed me to actually accept my 'illness' (injury) and it's only been in this acceptance that I've really moved forward with my recovery. Pete Walker says in his book that recovery is a never ending process. When I first read that it absolutely terrified me. Now it empowers me. While the real change is hard hard uncomfortable work, I've actually found some parts of therapy and getting to know myself fun and enjoyable.
Don't let anyone tell you to stop being angry because you have every right to be. Please just know that even though it's a long journey the anger will subside (the all consuming anger anyway, not the healthy understandable anger) which will leave room in your heart for healing.
I'm 28 too by the way. Welcome!