Hi Flutterbye,
I'm still in awe. Especially since I see you have done exposure therapy ,including, (God-forbid) proactive dating!
I had fallen passively into relationships all my life. Seeking out who and what I wanted for myself, rather than just being claimed by who wanted me and being grateful that anyone did....well you can guess how that turned out! Also, as Steadybowl says, what is familiar for me is unhealthy, not just from childhood, now I've now had five decades of reinforcing childhood dysfunction.
I guess people can go for their whole lives being disrespected and abused, and I should be grateful that finally my whole being screamed out "NO MORE ABUSE OF ANY KIND".
Depression is holding me back at the moment, and I'm looking into a radical treatment for it, which may mean leaving this country for a while. Hard with my social anxiety disorder. But like you say, rock bottom has it's advantages. When I get back, I intend to go all-out.
I admire the example you are setting, and the tremendous courage and strength that I know it takes to do something like this. I hope you keep us updated on your progress.
I'm still in awe. Especially since I see you have done exposure therapy ,including, (God-forbid) proactive dating!
I had fallen passively into relationships all my life. Seeking out who and what I wanted for myself, rather than just being claimed by who wanted me and being grateful that anyone did....well you can guess how that turned out! Also, as Steadybowl says, what is familiar for me is unhealthy, not just from childhood, now I've now had five decades of reinforcing childhood dysfunction.
I guess people can go for their whole lives being disrespected and abused, and I should be grateful that finally my whole being screamed out "NO MORE ABUSE OF ANY KIND".
Depression is holding me back at the moment, and I'm looking into a radical treatment for it, which may mean leaving this country for a while. Hard with my social anxiety disorder. But like you say, rock bottom has it's advantages. When I get back, I intend to go all-out.
I admire the example you are setting, and the tremendous courage and strength that I know it takes to do something like this. I hope you keep us updated on your progress.