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This may sound a bit strange, but I can't cry. Does anyone else have this problem? Inside, I feel so much emotion and anger and during therapy I can feel the tears at the back of my eyes, but they are unable to come out, I feel like my emotions are on a pause button or on a permanent stop. I know if I could sit there and let all my emotions out I would feel so much better, but for whatever reason I am unable to do so and find it really frustrating that I can't. I sometimes wonder what my Therapist thinks, I wonder if she thinks I'm very strange as she has never seen me shed a tear, previously I was in therapy for two years and was the same there too. Is this a symptom of cptsd or is it just 'me' does anyone know?

Thank you so much for your help and advice. I live in the u.k and you are only offered 6-8 weeks free therapy on the NHS. Which I have finished now, my Therapist has therefore put me on a waiting list now for 6 weeks of CBT in the hope that it will help me feel better about myself. As she believes I have an extreme case of cptsd she has been given permission through the NHS for me to return to her after the 6 weeks for ongoing therapy which she thinks that I'm going to be in for a few years. My negativity about 'me' is extreme and my self worth is zero, I believe this is due to 19 years of childhood abuse, being constantly criticised and put down at every opportunity, I dissociate a lot too which makes it difficult in therapy as when we are talking about issues I find difficult with, I remove myself from the situation and take myself away until my therapist has stopped talking then I try and change the subject so,I don't have to deal with it, not quite sure how I can get myself over that one!  Not convinced cbt is going to help but prepared to give anything a go. So pleased to have found this site, just good to know I'm not alone or going completely crazy!!

Hi, I'm new here! I recently was diagnosed with cptsd by my therapist. My therapist has been really helpful and offered great advice and suggestions, but now wants me to take a 6 week break from her and go and have cbt as she feels my self worth and negativity about myself is so low that she wants me to now have therapy in the hope that positive thinking and changing the way I think will help me not just in the long run but also to help release my inner critic which I have had great problems in trying to identify.
Has anyone else on here had cbt and if so did it work for you? I feel quite worried about it as I am so negative about myself that I can't imagine being able to turn my thought pattern around and start being positive about 'me'!
Any help or advice will be much appreciated thank you.