Hey everyone,
I am so glad that I found this site. I've been seeing a counselor for around a year and a half now, and I can honestly say my cPTSD would be 10x worse if it wasn't for her. I experienced a lot of emotional abuse growing up from both parents- you could make a case for physical too, but it's not typical.
The thing about it is, is that my cPTSD isn't bad, and my family and I are very good at appearing normal to the rest of the world. Growing up, appearances were drilled in to me, but now that I'm at college I've been a little more liberal in describing my childhood to my friends. It's always hard, because I don't remember a lot of the bad stuff, I just know it happened. Reading now through the symptoms of cPTSD is so great, because so much of parts of me that I didn't understand, I now realize come from what I experienced growing up.
I wish I could talk to my friends about it, but I honestly have no idea how they would react. A lot of times when I talk about my childhood or my parents, they disregard it. I understand I could have had things ten times worse, another benefit of this website is reading other people's stories and appreciating the parts of my childhood I did enjoy. I still wish my friends could understand though that sometimes problems I have, whether it is with guys, or just being present in whatever we are doing, isn't 100% my fault. Any tips anyone?
Thanks so much for any feedback.
I am so glad that I found this site. I've been seeing a counselor for around a year and a half now, and I can honestly say my cPTSD would be 10x worse if it wasn't for her. I experienced a lot of emotional abuse growing up from both parents- you could make a case for physical too, but it's not typical.
The thing about it is, is that my cPTSD isn't bad, and my family and I are very good at appearing normal to the rest of the world. Growing up, appearances were drilled in to me, but now that I'm at college I've been a little more liberal in describing my childhood to my friends. It's always hard, because I don't remember a lot of the bad stuff, I just know it happened. Reading now through the symptoms of cPTSD is so great, because so much of parts of me that I didn't understand, I now realize come from what I experienced growing up.
I wish I could talk to my friends about it, but I honestly have no idea how they would react. A lot of times when I talk about my childhood or my parents, they disregard it. I understand I could have had things ten times worse, another benefit of this website is reading other people's stories and appreciating the parts of my childhood I did enjoy. I still wish my friends could understand though that sometimes problems I have, whether it is with guys, or just being present in whatever we are doing, isn't 100% my fault. Any tips anyone?
Thanks so much for any feedback.