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Train delayed by geese on the line

https://www.bbc.com/news/uk-england-london-68855223

Today there is a calming breeze and I am sitting here enjoying its freshness. Bees are hovering around the bush by the window and it is somewhat soothing to watch them be busy doing their jobs. Right now I can see the beauty of nature all around me, it started with a gorgeous sunrise. The cheerful song of God's feathered songsters brought tears to my eyes.

I am grateful for this respite. It is as if God directed everything around me to speak peace to me today. These days are far and few between, but when they come it gives me hope. Not everything is ugly and cruel. I just wanted to share something positive.

 

I like to read positive things in among the horrors. I especially like descriptions of nature and animals, including bees and my favourite bumblebees.

I'm happy your environment is speaking peace today and that you are feeling hope.

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I hear you.

I know it's really hard to believe but things will get better bit by tiny bit.

Sending lots of good healing energy from here on OOTS

That might come (back) to adult you, blue. There's always hope. Especially in the creativity department   I feel kind of sad writing this though

I listened to a bit of one session yesterday.   There was a guest speaker or some such "de-bunking" myths on memory. It was probably meant to be helpful but he struck me as a guru-type who comes along and says: "you know all that stuff everybody else taught you? All wrong! You gotta listen to me if you want to heal". Of course, that's probably not what he said or even meant but that's what I understood within the space of 2 minutes, turned the thing off and went back to the course I paid for, which is better for me anyway!

But generally I have found Avaiya sessions helpful.

I've just signed up too. Why not? There might be something useful/interesting.

[getting back up again and setting off again when I've fallen on my nose or just stopped practising for whatever reason.]

I have started the course. Finally, in earnest, today. That is, I've dedicated a notebook for writing stuff, especially homework / being honest with myself + whatever else comes up and/or occurs to me. I might sometimes write about something on here or more likely on my private Journal
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More importantly for me, doing this course is part of my attempt to improve my self-discipline of doing things for ME, of taking those healing steps regularly, making a habit out of them, getting back up again and setting off again when I've fallen on my nose or just stopped practising for whatever reason. 
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Back on the bolded bit again today after idk 3-week break, tho it wasn't a planned break of course...

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I came across this on BBC news, no personal knowledge of it.

This kind of FOO stuff is soooo difficult. At least in my experience.

Is there a middle road possible? This kind of option was suggested to me: turn the invitation politely down but suggest you join them later for an important occasion?

If you have good contact with a sibling, I don't believe that declining her wedding invitation should make her go no contact with you. If it does, then imho very sadly the contact might feel good on your side but isn't so much on hers. "Not going" doesn't have to be understood as a huge statement.

Weddings are important but so is your emotional well-being!

I'm sorry that's the way things are for you atm.    if helpful Bach, otherwise ignore.

My H and I were just talking about his sister who was the executor for his NM's estate.  His NS told us their M left us money but after a couple of months and nothing my H started asking her about it.  She then started saying there was no money even though we had emails from her saying there was. She said she never told him there was money even though we had it in writing, and she just continued to run him around. After a while with him trying to get her to tell the truth she would no longer speak to him.

Sounds like my parents and all that run-around they gave me   In my case it turned out a little better. At least for now.

I'm sorry you and your H had to go through it all. It's so draining - all the gaslighting. Ugh.

So as you say, "Live and let die". 

   That's a new one for me.

Welcome to the forum, Sunspirit

Reading threads is a good idea - there is an awful lot of knowledge and experience here on the forum, even on really old threads nobody has responded to in a while.

The members are supportive of each other - it doesn't matter how bizarre I think one of my symptoms is, there's always somebody who understands it and has experienced similar.

Looking forward to hearing from you when you want to write more about yourself.

Thanks Blueberry. I visited the site. Their search gave zero results for my part of France.

I'm sorry about that. 

Maybe it can help somebody else though.

France is still there BB, just moved it so the countries are alphabetical. 

That's good to know. I see nothing between Canada and Germany, so that's starting up again but I don't need to be able to read it personally.