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#1
Eating Issues / Re: Weighty Issues
March 30, 2018, 10:55:16 AM
I lose 15-20kg, then have a bad patch and start eating again, I used to be very under weight, didn't eat for days , then when I began working I could afford to binge and stacked the weight on, now Im never full and crave unhealthy foods. Being able to link my eating issues with my CPTSD hopefully will help me deal with it. Good luck, sorta helps to hear that there are others with similar issues.
#2
wow  I have been always told that my eating disorder was part of depression or that I just lacked disipline, makes sense it is part of the CPTSD, I dont feel so bad about it now. Thanks
#3
General Discussion / Re: Why compete??
January 25, 2018, 07:26:01 AM
Such an interesting post, my cptsd is from childhood but began to effect me in my 40's, now 55 Ive been pensioned of. There is no contest, we all suffer,and to each person its just as real, no matter what the cause or duration. Unfortunately Its human nature to compare,
#4
The stick from an icecream, gives me the shivers, cant touch it at all or even see someone else licking it.
#5
The Cafe / Re: Favourite Quotes - Part 3
January 24, 2018, 11:21:32 PM
Dont bother losing  weight,   just get fatter friends.    fits every part of my life it means to change who you compare youself to
#6
You need to do what works for you. I had emdr and it changed my life, and then I did write my story, It took 3 months and it wrecked me, lots of tears but it was so worth doing, it is now a story, every now and then I still add to it, my T will never read it, only me. it worked for me, but it was one of the hardest things I've ever done and I wouldn,t recommend it for everyone.
#7
Therapy / Re: Therapist don't know CPTSD
January 22, 2018, 10:47:47 PM
I have had several T's who diagnosed me with depression, anxiety etc, all tried their therapies with little to no success, now I have a T who has given me a formal diagnosis, of Cptsd and its hard but I see improvement, the depression and anxiety are symptoms of my cptsd so they couldnt improve without dealing with the cause. I can only speak for me but it was like trying to fill a sink with no plug in it, until they replaced the plug I got no where.hope that makes sense.
#8
Hey Ah, so sorry for what you went threw, No One deserves that kind of treatment. My F used to say (TRIGGER ALERT) "if you say something wrong, when you wake up ill tell you what it was" He never told me. I spent 40 years trying to get his approval and believing he had changed and cared for me, and it always turned out bad. I will never understand how a person could treat anyone that badly especially their own child. sounds like your F was the one with mental issues and the one that needed a psyc assessment. wishing you peace and love reading your posts thanks.
#9
Therapy / Re: I just need to get this out of my chest
November 28, 2017, 06:40:43 AM
I worked in mental health for 10 years. I was told when I started (by a psychologist) "most psychologists study psyc to try and diagnose them selfs" sounds like you met one of these. first thing they are supposed to learn is that if its real for you its real. The T doesnt sound real bright, as most people on this site could relate to being numb emotionally from the pain, Im weird and have accepted that is who I am, and most likely aways will be.
#10
wow Andy thats so familiar, I feel your pain. Its sad that they keep going pretending to be nice people, pillars of sociality and we keep paying the price.
#11
Same here, can do anything for anyone, but cant accept anything for myself. I worked with someone who was always gratefull and complimentary whenever I did anything for her , it took almost 2 years before I could accept that there was no punch line at the end of the compliment.
#12
I believe you also, Im not a great writer, but they gave me a few months if i was lucky, so I sold up and moved 11 months ago, NC with anyone, my Grown up kids are upset because I don't call them regularly to check their ok, but they have families and they don't believe I'm worth a call. Its hard because the only people that I feel any connection with are on this site. wishing you peace and sending you a hug (even though I dont ever touch people)