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Fingers crossed with you!  An exciting step toward more healing!!

Sending best wishes with the move!

Thanks so much Jazzy!

My school year began last Thursday, and the first two days were fun and exhausting.  I am feeling grateful that my SSRIs have kicked in, as a sense of calm is such a boon at this time.  I have a sprained knee at the moment, brought on while I was standing for hours painting our backyard pergola a week ago and exacerbated when I decided to exercise every day of last week.  So, I am icing and have a no-exercise regiment for a while. 

But the calmness remains, and it is responsible for an improved home life at the moment.  My wife struggles so much with physical and mental illness, and if I can be a sea of calm, all the better.  I think I finally get just how much she struggles, none of which takes away from her inherent goodness and intelligence.  She is one of the smartest, most caring people I have ever known. 

So here's to continued healing, in all its aspects.

Hi-

I also want to congratulate you and your H for working out a solution to what sounds to have been a tricky problem between you.  Yes, even with cptsd we can function in relationships.  BTW my intimate partner has even more issues than I do and we still make it work. 

Good job!

Wb-

So nice to have you back!  Easy does it.  I'm here to listen (and heading back to teaching tomorrow, so please forgive any lapses).

 

Hope-

Thank you for the well wishes.  I certainly appreciate you also and graciously accept your hug! Here's one back at you

Whew- school starts up again in three days.  I volunteered to help kids get schedules when they came for orientation in the early evening.  It was over 100 degrees and I and a few others were completely soaked in sweat as we were in the direct sun for over an hour.  The experience was good, even still.  But I can tell I am already stressed as I left something in my room which is of value and I am going to feel better when I can retrieve it tomorrow. 

The many, many details needed to be attended to in my job are a source of frustration.  I am doing better with getting myself to slow down and focus - baby steps - and yet the overwhelm that creeps in when I realize that my classes are all over the limit is hard.  The district has about 15 or 20 school days to make things right, but by then we are fully in the swing of things and it feels like so much jostling.  I would do well to include more meditation in my routine just about now. 

Thank goodness for antidepressants.  There are only a couple of side effects so far, but worth it.  I don't even react to my tinnitus as I once did.  That alone is worth the price of admission. 

Oh, gosh.  I will try to remain positive.  Arriving at the end of my career is odd.  Two more years, fingers crossed.  Trying to stay physically fit and getting more emotionally stable.  That is the great hope.  And not having to be perfect or please everyone.  Being ok with difficult emotions.  Letting them just pass through me. 

3R-

I haven't had as much time to read posts lately, as I am back in teaching mode.  But I wanted to send along my best wishes for your healing.  Take care, and be safe.

Deep Blue-

I just want to echo what others have said here.  You are cared about!  You make a difference in so many lives, and please don't forget that.

I hope this next week finds you feeling more resilient and with a greater sense of peace.

Sending love, fellow teacher!

Sending support your way, 3R.  I just started my first ever antidepressant prescription and it is really helping.  My HMO also doesn't support EMDR or other options you mentioned.  So, I understand.  I am also a fellow codependent.  I don't know if this is available in your area, but I have been attending support groups - not specifically for codependents, but a Buddhist oriented approach which welcomes anyone with issues, whether to do with substances or not.  It is helping.

May you find peace and rest.

Oh, that's great news Kizzie!  Thanks for letting us know that things are on more of an even keel.  Now you can get to the matters which need to be handled in the present day.

Be safe and carry on.

Sending love and support

Great to see you posting here!!