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Thanks, friends.  The 12 Step meeting was fantastic.  Everyone was welcoming and I felt ok about having attended.  It's nice to be able to own mistakes out loud.  I am working on what is called a Truth Inventory.  Boy is it exhaustive and draining to complete.  But it's what I need to do in order to be really who I am.

Lots of hard work to do.

Blue-I've just finished a course of antibiotics and am doing the sinus rinse thing with salt and with a Flonase chaser.  I guess I'm better. 

Thanks for the cheery well wishes, Tee!!

I'm now needing to work on some addiction/anxiety issues of long standing.  Going to my first 12 step meeting in a few minutes.  It's 12 Step done Buddhist style, so not as deistic.  I am hoping to get something helpful here.  I also downloaded and began reading "Recovery Refuge" by Noah Levine.  More other meetings to follow if this one helps.

As a science teacher, I am very pleased that you have included the academic research section.  Thanks so much!

Definitely here with you, Blue!

Thanks, Kizzie.  I endorsed Veronique and my download some of her very useful information at a later time. 

It's always great to hear your cheery voice here, BeHea1thy.  I am unbelievably grateful for access to medical care.  The antibiotics prescribed by my primary care doc once the MRI revealed a massive sinus issue are starting to help my level of blood oxygen saturation return to a more normal level.  That makes life much more enjoyable!!

Thanks again for checking in.

Thinking about you this morning, DeepBlue.  Sending a 

Thanks so much!

I'm seconding SharpandBlunt in sending wishes for peace and calm.  Yes, shame and self loathing (I have LOTS of experience here) stinks and yes, it can pass eventually.  I see myself having done things in the rather recent past as a distraction from healthier/healing actions and I also have felt shame over them.  But no, I didn't do them on purpose.  They were more like conditioned responses, reactions to how the younger me was feeling.  Methods of coping.  So I guess we need to thank ourselves for at least trying something to make ourselves feel safe or normal or not so hurt. 

I forget the source of the quote, "When I knew better, I did better", but it calls to me at the moment.  Maybe Maya Angelou.....

Thank you, Tee.  The MRI wasn't as bad as I had feared, only lasted 15 minutes. 

Yes, the wheeze is still present, but I am able to run anyways.  I will consult with my doctor soon as the course of prednisone did not alter my oxygen saturation levels, at least not yet. 

I feel pleased that my health care providers are paying attention.  Thanks for the support!

Blue-

I've been been disconnected these past few days and see that you are struggling.  As San suggests, please go easy on yourself.  Build some restful things into your day. 

Sending love and ease.

Hearing test only showed that there is no problem with my hearing.  Tonight, I am scheduled for an MRI of the brain.  We shall see what the old grey matter does or does not contain!!

All my bloodwork is finished and all levels seem fine.  The chest X-ray did not reveal anything interesting, but I have been continuing to wheeze and have breathing problems off and on so the doc prescribed a course of prednisone as well as an inhaler until this clears up. 

Hearing test tomorrow.  Whee.