No More Guilt-
Yes, you are truly in a difficult place. You are a survivor, as we all are on this forum, and you will make it through this rough patch. The best advice I can give is the simplest - take just one step at a time. Do one healing thing - whatever that may be for you. Drink calming teas, listen to music, and breathe more deeply. What else can you think of that feels good in the moment? Just try one at a time.
I'm glad you have therapy to anticipate. That will be a big help. It may not sound believable at the moment, but you will get through this. Perhaps take a break from reading about Cptsd, which reminds you of what is "wrong" with you (with any of us, really). What has made you able to survive? What is one strength? You are much more than a diagnosis, much more than the pain you feel. You have value that cannot be taken away by your Mother or anyone else. You deserve the best treatment you can give yourself. You deserve self compassion in large amounts.
Breathe, take one step at a time, and you will find a bit of peace. You are not alone - each one of us on this forum has been and sometimes still goes through very tough times. Hold on, and keep posting.
Yes, you are truly in a difficult place. You are a survivor, as we all are on this forum, and you will make it through this rough patch. The best advice I can give is the simplest - take just one step at a time. Do one healing thing - whatever that may be for you. Drink calming teas, listen to music, and breathe more deeply. What else can you think of that feels good in the moment? Just try one at a time.
I'm glad you have therapy to anticipate. That will be a big help. It may not sound believable at the moment, but you will get through this. Perhaps take a break from reading about Cptsd, which reminds you of what is "wrong" with you (with any of us, really). What has made you able to survive? What is one strength? You are much more than a diagnosis, much more than the pain you feel. You have value that cannot be taken away by your Mother or anyone else. You deserve the best treatment you can give yourself. You deserve self compassion in large amounts.
Breathe, take one step at a time, and you will find a bit of peace. You are not alone - each one of us on this forum has been and sometimes still goes through very tough times. Hold on, and keep posting.