Well, I crashed. And crashed hard. Trying to maintain my head above the water.
Constant nightmares, constant need for sleep, falling asleep in front of the tv and having more nightmares isn't helping.
I've been trying to keep busy, but that only makes me more tired. Can't stand in front of the computer long.
Triggered by accessing my IC, and feeling the unbelievable amount of pain in a ball in the center of the chest, also triggered by the last appointment with T, which left me raw and with unfinished business. He did prolong the appointment, it was just not enough. Feeling a bit lost inside myself without guidance, but will have to make until the next appointment this week.
Nighmares consist of me living happily ever after with my abusers and enjoying it, while my Self is in the back of my mind telling me "This isn't right", it's recurring and I always wake up entrenched in sweat and with palpitations in my heart. The content is always different, though, the theme is the only thing recurring.
Wishing for a better tomorrow. Will take a walk now.
Constant nightmares, constant need for sleep, falling asleep in front of the tv and having more nightmares isn't helping.
I've been trying to keep busy, but that only makes me more tired. Can't stand in front of the computer long.
Triggered by accessing my IC, and feeling the unbelievable amount of pain in a ball in the center of the chest, also triggered by the last appointment with T, which left me raw and with unfinished business. He did prolong the appointment, it was just not enough. Feeling a bit lost inside myself without guidance, but will have to make until the next appointment this week.
Nighmares consist of me living happily ever after with my abusers and enjoying it, while my Self is in the back of my mind telling me "This isn't right", it's recurring and I always wake up entrenched in sweat and with palpitations in my heart. The content is always different, though, the theme is the only thing recurring.
Wishing for a better tomorrow. Will take a walk now.