Quote from: sanmagic7 on May 05, 2017, 11:53:57 PM
an 'ef', or emotional flashback is what c-ptsd people go through as compared to the visual/audio flashbacks of people suffering from ptsd. it you type in pete walker, emotional flashbacks, you'll get to his excellent responses about c-ptsd and ef's, and how to get ourselves thru them. sorry, i don't have the link. 3 roses does. but i found it by looking for pete walker. there are great explanations from him.
the mind-body connection i have found to be invaluable, and am doing more positive self-talk now to my brain, re-wiring it, allowing more and healthier connections to form. i got that idea from the movie 'a beautiful mind'. what that guy did with his schizophrenic companions was inspirational to me. mind over brain. it works.
keep going. i think you're doing really well in a very bad situation. holding your hand till you don't need it anymore. big hug.
thanks much sanmagic7. I ended up buying the Kindle book on CPTSD by Pete Walker. It looks amazing, I skimmed through some last night.
I definitely have been having one long horrendous emotional flashback, for sure! I keep reminding myself "It's not your fault, it's because you had a broken foundation" ... this is helping me silence the inner critic/punisher.
that is a good explanation too, the emotional component vs. visual/auditory.
I've often joked around about my 'crossed wires' ... I try also to tell myself that 'good is good, bad is bad, and I only want the good' ... because in my crossed-wire brain I have often lived like the opposite.